Yeap....definitely everybody will be terribly excited after hearing the word "holiday". For most of us, the word "holiday" itself means "rest, vacation, recreation" plus an extra long list of activities that would accompany the single word. Our school officially "closed its gates" exactly at a very unique date; 11.11.11..hahah..This is to give way to the coming SPM examination which is going to be held starting from next week. Most teachers will take this opportunity to spend their times with their spouses and family members; or just to look on for "extra incomes", namely invigilating examinations or joining teams of examiners. Or else, holidays remain holidays unless it is spent wisely and usefully. As for me, it's another "hibernation" period for me; to reflect on what I have done for the past 11 months as I approach the end of the year 2011. It is also a good time for me to retune my "biological clock" as I used to wake up by 6.00 a.m everyday and start up my daily routine as a teacher.
Well...wait! There's something came up my mind the moment I am writing this: I am now exactly 29 years 11 months and 8 days (hahaha..LOL) and soon I will turn 30. 5th December is approaching and I am counting my days as I am trying to figure out my next step. As I looked back at my past, I am glad that I have gone past all these hardships; thank you God for giving me the strength to carry on. Certainly, life is a continuous "cross-bearing" journey, as the LORD says. It's true indeed, an undeniable truth to be exact.
The year 2011 does not count so much for me, I would rather consider it as a "rehabilitation" period after my break up with someone more than a year ago. A lesson that need to be given a special thought indeed, but that won't put me down either. People might ask about the possibility to start up another new relationship with another person. I respectfully refuse their queries though deep inside my heart I still deeply miss the person who already left me for no obvious reasons. Hmmmh...I have to stop being melancholic; stop dreaming about the past, it's time to look forward and never look back. The pain subsides, but yes- I still can see the scar; a deep scar left by the bloodiest wound.
Prayer: LORD, thank you for letting me to live and worship Thee once again. I realise that everything happened with reasons and I am definitely put all my trust and confidence in Thee alone. Thank you LORD for taking away my sufferings. My sufferings are nothing compared to Thy Burden of the Cross which Thou carried along the Road to Calvary. I forgive those who hurt me before, intentionally or unintentionally. Heal their heart, O LORD and let Thy Eternal Light penetrates deep into their souls so that they also might realise that Thou always live and forgive them. LORD, help me to gather enough strength as I walk along the pathway of this life until one day I will meet you face to face in Thy Eternal Kingdom. AMEN.
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