Winstedt's Philosophical Article: Learning to accept and love the we are as the way we should be...

Dream car perhaps??? Being different is unique, not a freak!

In a non-philosophical way, which is understood by most people who are also non-philosophical, I love to write something which is philosophical..hahha..hard to understand? I hope this won't put you down, or am I? I'm not going to write things in simplicity since for my personal interest and the sensitivity of certain groups of people, I would rather coined the terms that I am going to use in the remaining part of my article in a more "delicate, intricate but yet precise" way. So, I would like to apologise to any people out there who would find it extremely hard to comprehend my article and I suggest that you should read my other articles which are also available in my blog; which are written in a more simplistic manner.


"I am born this way", yeah..that's what Lady Gaga said. We loved to be who we are. We loved being accepted the way we "are born". This particular group of people think that they belong to no one except themselves, and any attempts or even actions that might deprived them of their rights are considered as an ostracism or a blockage against their "goals". I am not an "anti establishment group", but I would consider myself as being on the "safe, orthodox" side. Yes, the word "orthodox" seems to be a very intriguing, or even irritating one for some. Rationalist, the "enlightened", revolutionist and globalist would termed this people as "old fashioned and conservative" and I guess I would be put in their top 10 list as one of the most conservative people that they ever met in their life (LOL..hahha! Come on, or else I won't have any FB account or even my own blogspot if that is so immensely true...).

(Hahaha..this is a back cover of a book titled 'Telajan, the Son of Keling" written my late granduncle, Moses anak Beti, the youngest sibling of my late grandfather's from my mother's side. He was one of the inspired Iban writers who wrote in originality without being pushed by any parties. I really admired him and perhaps this talent never dies and keeps to run in the his family bloodlines---including me perhaps??).


To be frank, let us review what people might think of the term "old-fashioned and conservative" refers to (by referring me myself as a scenario).
Argument #1: I don't change my mobile phone or even my phone number. That means I am an anti-change or even an anti-technology person.
Facts (to be refuted if you can): I owned my Nokia 3310 since year 2001 and it remained until now ( I never buy my own mobile phone, I only possessed the "second hand" N..something..something..(forgot it) model handed down by my sister who found that the features in it were no longer relevant ( Honestly..for God's sake I don't know what the hell is 3G and 4G is all about). Some of my colleagues possess Iphone 4, Samsung Galaxy SII, Galaxy Tab and other advanced gadgets that might put people in an awe as they behold the magnificent stuffs in their hands ( I guess..but I'm not that really "awed" by the splendorous sight..hahaha!)

It's another long holiday and I don't know what the hell I am going to do! LOL!

Yeap....definitely everybody will be terribly excited after hearing the word "holiday". For most of us, the word "holiday" itself means "rest, vacation, recreation" plus an extra long list of activities that would accompany the single word. Our school officially "closed its gates" exactly at a very unique date; 11.11.11..hahah..This is to give way to the coming SPM examination which is going to be held starting from next week. Most teachers will take this opportunity to spend their times with their spouses and family members; or just to look on for "extra incomes", namely invigilating examinations or joining teams of examiners. Or else, holidays remain holidays unless it is spent wisely and usefully. As for me, it's another "hibernation" period for me; to reflect on what I have done for the past 11 months as I approach the end of the year 2011. It is also a good time for me to retune my "biological clock" as I used to wake up by 6.00 a.m everyday and start up my daily routine as a teacher.
Well...wait! There's something came up my mind the moment I am writing this: I am now exactly 29 years 11 months and 8 days (hahaha..LOL) and soon I will turn 30. 5th December is approaching and I am counting my days as I am trying to figure out my next step. As I looked back at my past, I am glad that I have gone past all these hardships; thank you God for giving me the strength to carry on. Certainly, life is a continuous "cross-bearing" journey, as the LORD says. It's true indeed, an undeniable truth to be exact.
The year 2011 does not count so much for me, I would rather consider it as a "rehabilitation" period after my break up with someone more than a year ago. A lesson that need to be given a special thought indeed, but that won't put me down either. People might ask about the possibility to start up another new relationship with another person. I respectfully refuse their queries though deep inside my heart I still deeply miss the person who already left me for no obvious reasons. Hmmmh...I have to stop being melancholic; stop dreaming about the past, it's time to look forward and never look back. The pain subsides, but yes- I still can see the scar; a deep scar left by the bloodiest wound.

Prayer: LORD, thank you for letting me to live and worship Thee once again. I realise that everything happened with reasons and I am definitely put all my trust and confidence in Thee alone. Thank you LORD for taking away my sufferings. My sufferings are nothing compared to Thy Burden of the Cross which Thou carried along the Road to Calvary. I forgive those who hurt me before, intentionally or unintentionally. Heal their heart, O LORD and let Thy Eternal Light penetrates deep into their souls so that they also might realise that Thou always live and forgive them. LORD, help me to gather enough strength as I walk along the pathway of this life until one day I will meet you face to face in Thy Eternal Kingdom. AMEN.